Offer

The world has so much to offer. No one is born incapable of accepting from the world. As you grow older self loathe takes over all the virtues. Self Loathe ties your hands & heart up. 

What makes me Proud

I saw an interview of Oprah on the CNN with Piers Morgan. I love her and not because shes a woman or shes a feminist or anything. I just love her for reasons I dont know. Most Importantly the fact that she promotes Love. Pure Love for all humans alike and takes efforts to have compassion and empathy for people around you.

I want to be like her. During the interview when he asked her about Obama being a let down. She gave answers which were pretty lame. It was very obvious that she hasnt followed up on his actions. But the justification or the answer she gave seemed to make sense. At the end of the day, she knows what Obama is as a person. She knows that in his charachter and his deeds he will do whatever it takes to make his country the best.

In Life we come across instances when we face tough situations and there are men who will knock all doors and fight till the end and fight till the last breath. I come across such people everyday. And i meet the total opposite too. I feel very proud of being human cause of some worthy humans.

Polymerism

Any one who knows chemistry knows what a Polymer is. A wikipedia definition says "A polymer is a large molecule (macro molecule) composed of repeating structural units. These subunits are typically connected by covalent chemical bonds. Although the term polymer is sometimes taken to refer to plastics, it actually encompasses a large class of natural and synthetic materials with a wide variety of properties."

Psycho graphic Profiling being my self claimed expertise I am gonna apply this term to Human Beings.


Origin of the Thought:
One day after work, Met a friend whose a sweetheart BTW,During one of the conversations following happened. Please take a breath, it is very very jumbled:

I say:" I think I don't know what i want in Life because if I get what I want. I will be happy and if I am happy, I will live in the fear of losing happiness hence I am more at ease with sadness and depression. So in other words sadness makes me Happy."

When I completed saying this both of us were so Confused that I further added to cut the silence, " I think I am complicated."

To which she immediately responded, " No You are not complicated, You are just Stupid"

After thinking about it for the next 4 to 5 hrs, i realised she was right. But I am not going tell people I am stupid...no way....so what do I do, what do I do.....Aaha I coined a new term, I am not complicated I am Polymeric..How cool does that sound!

All you people out there call yourself Polymeric.. that's the way to go!!! Yay

u scratch my back i will scratch urs....

What do they think of themsleves. U.S.A and India trying to maiantain their relationship...ooohhh please I am better at relationships..and whoever knows me will know what that statement means. Such a two timer U.S.A. Kill the diplomacy lets just talk business.....

I identify wid everyone.....good, bad, ugly...In a mirror i see a mirror..........Nt a crisis of identify but mabbe too much of it!

The more I know myself, the more I realise I am just like you, needy and more needy! I guess even you feel "You are special"!

Its funny my job is all about deductions (markets, product life, future trend) but I can hardly deduce anything from my life!

Magnet...........

These days I feel lyk a magnet,
A black hard one which attracts all the grief,
The ones that are mine as well those which are not,
And I am not liking it!

For anytime when confused------------The truth is always out in the open noone hides it so if something is being hidden it is falsehood! If I am a part of something that needs to be hidden from the world its false.Never ever hold on to falsehood coz as lame as it may sound Truth always triumphs!

"Sometimes I would like to be proved wrong about things and people."

I remember the time when they used to show Ally McBeal on TV. I wanted to be her. The most fascinating part of the show used to be the unisex bathroom. I work now and my office has one…I mean the unisex bathroom…and it’s not fun at all! :-(!

Never looked uglier.dont have to worry about losing it....Atleast I dont feel unfulfilled..hope everyone else turns ugly...

There is a question on my mind. I am very sure what I think is the answer is the truth . I should say its debatable Question:How is being hurt different from self pity? I think in black and white both mean the same.

About Choices!!!

I wonder....
If it were to choose the Ys and not the X, I would have been a young man today,
Then maybe my pop would trust me with his shoulders!
If I were to choose a kid bro over a sis, I would be spineless today,
Then may be I would stoop even lower!
If I were to choose my old friends over the new ones, I would have few good friends,
Then may be I would live my whole life in a matchbox!
When I was offered to choose between happiness and peace, I chose Peace!
Then on the 13th even if it is to choose the lesser evil..I will make a choice for my leader! Atleast for myself if not for the state! Because thats what I do...Choose!

Me, God and Swaps!!!!!!!!!!!!

The most frequently used three words in my life, “I don’t know”. I don’t like to use it anymore. I want to give real answers. So when someone asks me-Do you believe in God? I say “I don’t know” Again the same bullshit. The problem is that I can’t give answers without thinking that’s why “I don’t know”. Ask me questions, I will answer but please give me time. My processor is slow. I guess that’s why I like people who are spontaneous in answering. But only to realize they did not mean what they said.
So do you believe in God? When I was a kid I used to pray to God after having a bath and before going to sleep. It was more like a recital without actually meaning what I say. I continue to do that even today. I go to temples sometimes. The whole concept is confusing. There are things I feel for real. For example when I hate someone I know I hate him and it’s real. When I am nervous about something I know I am nervous and it’s real. When I distrust someone I know it’s real. But I don’t know when I love someone; I don’t know when I trust someone, when I need someone. May be no as an answer seems the right thing to do for all these questions.
It’s so unreal when I say I believe in God! I listen to myself and I am like stop the bullshit. I believe in nature and nature is God! Man made God, religion, rituals coz it makes life easier for him. Someone to blame for when things go wrong. When life is dirty something to believe in coz it’s much more difficult to believe in myself so let me believe in something that probably made me and many others who turned out to be pretty good! To come to see I do believe in God. I talk to myself all day long. If there’s a bit of God in me…Maybe.
Its very sickening when people do poojas and rituals for me, it’s a slap on my face saying;” You are a fuckin loser so we need God to fix things for you.”
Another totally different thought which is eating on my brain cells is Couple swapping. I hear it is very rampant these days, I mean even in India. How does that work. I mean I know men can do any women anytime it doesn’t really have anything to do with emotions- at least that’s what they try to portray about themselves. But how do women do it? I mean isn’t physical intimacy so close to emotional intimacy for women. I cant sleep with someone whom I don’t have feeling for and what I am scared about is that in future no matter reason it is I don’t want to be emotionally disconnected with my body. It’s like being dead.
To think of it is liberating, I can be sexually involved with anyone but my love is only for one man. If the world achieves that kind of psychological level we would all be God!! I am not God!! So do I believe in God?...........I don’t know.

I like myself today!!!!!!!!

Every aspect of life has been institutionalised. From education to profession to companionship to spirituality to death. A child is born is immediately a part of this. Is it the only way of life or is there a choice? At this stage of life I cant think of being otherwise. To think of it- institutions are a way of bringing order and humans unlike animals like order, patterns and trends in everything. So, this is evolution then why is everyone so claustrophobic or is it just me? Everyday I try to find patterns in people and try to club people into different categories as per their sex, age , education,activities but there are always exceptions which kills the pattern. Unlike the theories we learn in school I dont like exceptions because then the theory doesnt hold true. The exception may happen to anyone and what if its me. Everyone and everything is so different- how can these insitutions suffice for all of them.

" I dont understand directions, I dont remember all these numbers and passwords, I cry for almost everything, almost everyday, But I dont care. And ya I still believe in the Fairytale Love.I am a woman and was meant to be this way." :-)

"I wonder how it feels to be a man. But then I dont know how it feels to be another woman or animal or bird or object. How would I ever know?"

"I live with a ticking time bomb under my seat, the wait is much more excruciating than the blast"