2009 and thereof

I see all my fellow bloggers talk about the year gone by so me why not. I did things which I may have never done otherwise. 2009 made me learn a hell lotta things. The year has been eventful or not actually. I always thought I am simple but I lied to me.
You know how people talk about technology all the time how the rate at which it has developed over the past couple of decades. It is tremendous. I feel overwhelmed. If I were God I would be proud of Man ….aaah I said it…I know not many are, coz of global warming, terrorism, wars etc. But look around if there is a creator it gave us an open field with all kind of creatures but man made the most of it.
Just when I was day dreaming about human progress it dawned on me. I thought of my mom. My mom was born in a village without electricity and now she has been transported into this world of LEDs, Iphones, Sixth sense technology, Cloud computing, etc. This world where human emotions are as fast as technological innovations. She tries so hard to cope up and I never realized how much her struggle is until this year.
Most of our parents are from this generation who are the intermediary to two generations which are as different as heaven and hell. The generation that was never given an opportunity to have a mind of their own and if they had not so much an opportunity to act on it. They just went with the flow. Then with us it made them realize that every person has the right to his or her own life. This they realize when their own life is almost done with. I can’t even imagine living with regret.
I learnt I love only two people in the world---Mum and Ashu. I always ran away from love so much so that I never admitted my love to my mom or my sis. I thought I am not capable of love. I thought if money can satisfy all human needs then why get into the puddle of love and get dirty. But money did nothing for me…Love over money anyday. I hate it when people associate love to the sexes.
2009 lost MJ,I think 2010 cant get worse!

Michael Passion Jackson

Flashback

Today morning as usual was running across the over bridge at Goregoan station to get into the 9 am local train. While running, got a glimpse of this man and woman walking hand in hand. When it’s just twenty seconds for the train to leave I usually run like a bullet towards the train. In split seconds I bumped into the couple.
I dashed the lady and both of us jolted back. I now sense “stares” at me from all directions. The lady was blind with a stick in her hand and the man holding her tight.
I could see all the people around judging me; I sunk into the ground beneath me and FLASHBACK.
9th standard, all students scoring more than 75% were taken to St. Xavier’s School in town for a science exhibition. I was very excited; Lorraine and one another teacher accompanied us to the exhibition. It was also my first Mumbai local train journey without family.
I got up early excited put on my uniform and reached school. Everything, from the train vendors, to the people travelling and the fighting women in the train seemed exciting to me.
We reached Churchgate station and were walking towards the school. When suddenly I hit an old man and his stick fell down. He was too old to pick up the walking stick. I was standing there watching him struggling to pick up the stick but I just walked away.
I saw my friends helping him out. All of them and the teachers gave me the worst look ever. I can never forget that.
I feel so lost sometimes- I don’t know why I did not help that man. I did not have fun at the exhibition that day.
Today I was reminded of that day….